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THE WORLD THROUGH MY EYES

You may see things differently, but this is how I view my life.

1/20/2005

Taking Big Steps

Things couldn’t be going better between David and I. I am truly happier than I’ve ever been in my life and I can’t wait until February 14th! I have a feeling that will be a big day for me and hopefully I’ll have a ring for my naked finger. He’s made some hints that that will be the day we’ll be engaged. If not that day, then our 6-month anniversary, which will be March 4th. Either way, that will make me the happiest girl on the planet. He teases me that “My master plan is in full effect and going according to schedule”. And so far it is.

He wants me to move in this coming March. And he knows that I won’t move in until I get a ring on my finger. So that tells me it’s going to happen soon. The thing is, I can’t move in until my daughter finishes 6th grade, which will be in June. I can’t put her in another school in the middle of the school year when she’s got a 6th grade dance and 6th grade graduation. She’s gone to the same school since Kindergarten and I know how important these things are to her.

I might consider moving in with David the beginning of May and having the kids stay with their Dad for the remaining of the school year. This way it will give me time to settle into a new job and get used to living with David full time. I know for a fact I don’t want the kids living with their Dad for more than a month. The only reason why I would even consider the kids living with him is the fact that he lives with his parents. I trust them. I don’t trust him.
I know I’ve found my life partner. I don’t have one doubt in my mind about this. I’ve known it from the beginning. I love the way I feel when I’m with him, and I hate being without him. He is my best friend. I know he is the person I want to spend the rest of my life with.

1/04/2005

A Reason, A Season or A Lifetime

I know material things don't make a relationship. I was just excited to get those things and I wanted to share. We have so much more than what he buys me. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining, but from what I hear, he's not the kind of guy to buy girls gifts, so it made me feel special. And I'm totally not using him for what he buys me. Those things don't matter. What matters is how he makes me feel and how he treats me, my kids, my family and friends. What matters is how he reacts when I do something wrong, such as accidentally breaking my key off inside his lock. Let's just say, he totally passed with flying colors.
My longtime internet friend Jeff asked me for this a while back, after his heart was broken, I found it and thought I'd post it to always be accessible to him. I have to say something Jeff, love is a very vulnerable thing. If you don't make yourself exposed, you'll never experience such a wonderful thing. Unfortunately, part of being vulnerable, is leaving yourself open to being hurt. And being hurt when your in love is one of the worst kind of hurts and it takes a long time to get over. I think it's better to have experienced love, than to never of had it at all.

Reason, Season or Lifetime

People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.When you figure out which it is, you will know exactly what to do.

Reason

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up or act out and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on.

Season
When people come into your life for a SEASON, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real. But, only for a season.

Lifetime
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.